Sharing

Today is a new experience. I awoke realizing my oldest is on the other side of the planet. Haven’t dealt with this one before. My sister-in-law has a daughter studying in France right now but they can call each other anytime they want. So…..even though it is kind of the same………

Had kind of a God moment take place yesterday. Erin was telling me how she now prays through Psalm 91 as an addition to what verses she already prays through. She prays through Ephesians 6:10-20 daily. I even read it aloud to the family after speaking with her. Then, later in the day, I had asked my Pastor what scripture was being read on the 21st when I am listed as worship leader. I startled my dear husband who was beside me when I got the answer with my gasp. It is Ephesians 6:13-15.

Ok, so where is my heart today? Ah duhhhh. But what else is there? I’ve been so wrapped around this one situation in our life that I haven’t been paying attention to anything else. It showed up in dinner last night. I was attempting to stay busy, you know, no idleness, so I wanted to make a blueplate dinner. So I made meatloaf, mashed taters, gravy, veggie and chocolate cake. Ok, first, I’m not the best cook in the world but I’m not the worst either. Last night I was toxic. My mind could not stay focused and as a result not only did I burn the meatloaf but I over baked the cake. The family lovingly ate the darn thing anyway with the only comment coming from Kelsey asking if there were supposed to be toasty, crunchy bits to the outside of the meatloaf. And the cake? Well it takes a few glasses of milk to get through.

Today will be the last day sitting around waiting for a call. Erin did call from Germany and said she would definitely call one more time today but could not tell me when that would be of course. So naturally I will stay put waiting for that call. I promised the girls it will not be like this for the four months Erin is gone. I think they were beginning to wonder.

So why are the phone calls so important? Well as Erin said, you want to hear the voices you know you will not be hearing for a long time is one of the reasons. I began to understand another level to it yesterday as well. There is this need to try to say everything you think needs to be said. Even while you are trying to say it all, every ounce of shared love and pride, every word of encouragement and support, that no matter how long you could be there sharing this all you still never feel like it is all said. I think there is a good reason for that. Words cannot possibly hold and convey it all. We are limited in our abilities. Love, which is God, is limitless. How can one possibly express it all? We can’t. But we also should never cease trying. Share it. Always. Never hold back.

While Erin is on the other side of the world fulfilling her duties I need to stay focused on my duties here on my side of the planet. I suppose I could get started.

Love you all!!!