Spinning

I need a camera. This is silly considering that there are presently five cameras in the house. We have the old 35mm which is a nice camera. Who uses them anymore? And it is cumbersome. I’m looking for something to take to Colorado with me. Each of the kids have cameras and I suppose I could borrow one of them but I really would like something I am in control of. And of course Bob has his $1600.00 Digital SLR camera I bought him for his 50th birthday. You’d think a camera that expensive and with that many bells and whistles on it that I could take a decent picture with it. Nope. But I could probably launch the space shuttle.

I’m too simple when it comes to all this technological gobbly-gook. I need something with point and shoot capabilities. Something simple and to the point like me. It also has to be able to take some abuse. If anyone has any suggestions of what brand to look for that doesn’t break the bank….I’d appreciate it.

I want the camera for the trip because I don’t think I have any pictures more current of Erin than maybe 18 months ago. We mama’s are weird like that. Our babies go off somewhere and we have to have their image right next to us. Hmmm…..I’m speaking of mama’s as a whole when I really have no right to. Maybe it is just a me thing. I’m doubting it though.

I feel kind of lost lately. My mind jumps around a mile a minute. So much so that the feelings kind of hit numb. Numb is okay up until it hits a stall. Then it immobilizes a person. I try to not live by feelings knowing full well that feelings can be deceptive since as humans we tend to default to self protective surface emotions, but they are nice to have around occasionally to jump start a person into action. When I stay numb too long I tend to be as I stated earlier….lost. Unsure of where to start.

The other danger in numb is that when I’m not feeling on the inside…..I start looking on the outside. Now, why this is dangerous is this is when I get started on seeing the speck in my brothers eye. Ah come on….you know what I’m talking about. I become this awful, sinful fault finder extraordinaire. With God’s help I am getting better at recognizing these snares the evil one sets up for me. Seeing the snares must then lead to releasing all to God. Call my sins for what they are, repent of them and ask for forgiveness. Then He has the power to release me from their power and bondage. It can’t happen until I’m willing to recognize the ugliness in myself first. Amazing how many years it took for me to really get that.

Well, it is time for me to stop spinning my tires and put the tread to the pavement and get my day started. It is a beautiful day. Praise God.