Life is here and now

Okay, I have not posted to this blog in well over 2 months. I told myself when I started it that I would be more disciplined in writing to it but then I never thought life could get so busy all at once either. I guess I had my head in the sand on that piece of reality eh?

So, has life slowed down? Not a bit. I took yesterday to regroup a bit after having come off of a task of planning a party for a special someone. Except for my questionable MC~ing abilities…. (How is it I, the notorious talker, can get so tongue tied?)…for the most part I think the party went well. It certainly was well attended. As mentioned….it was a special someone which accounts for the numbers.

Yesterday I attempted to get some household responsibilities caught up. Well that elephant is going to have to be eaten one bite at a time. I still have so much else going on that I have to slip in the lower priorities where I can. Today a top priority has been consuming my time. That is getting the portfolios together for the girl’s evaluations. I was having a troublesome spot with getting the homeschool software to spit out what I wanted in resource reports…but I finally conquered that beast. I am NOT techie smart. There is still much to do but I’m fairly confident I should have everything compiled by Friday.

The last couple of weeks had proven difficult as far as focus. Upon hearing about Erin’s deployment to Iraq my mind tends to drift. There is a broad range of emotions and thoughts that occur when one gets that kind of news. You’re alone with your feelings as a parent but yet in the company of so many others in the same position. It is amazing how quickly that network grows when you share the news. That one commonality brings people together in a supportive bond. It has been a blessing.

Turning to and trusting God in this matter has been the biggest comfort. It is too easy to have tunnel vision and dwell only in the circumstances. I refuse to be a person that lives from one circumstance to another in a bad attitude sort of way. Storms come up in life. We need to learn to dig our roots in deep instead of shallowly so we are not toppled over from the next wind that comes along. And, if we looked back, not in a regretful way but in a lesson learned sort of way, we can see that all those “circumstances” that came along in life had meaning…. eventually. Something always came out of them. Always. Maybe things didn’t always go as I would have desired but when I am in a circumstance I don’t see the whole picture….only God does. And He always turns everything into something good. Maybe not in our timing, but our timing and vision is not what matters. Our trust and obedience to His will is what matters.

I’m very proud of Erin and her approach to this life event. She has not shrunk away even once. Her “mission statement” has always been “I want to make a difference”. She strongly believes in battling terrorism. She hurts at the memory of her little sister being terrified when seeing an airplane in the sky for the first time again after 9-11 thinking we were about to be bombed. She sees her part in battling terrorism to be one who cares for and helps heal those at the front lines of that battle. Her vision is much broader than mine had been. She is responsible for opening my eyes to the bigger picture. Her mission statement isn’t a onetime deal. She makes a difference every single day. She just is too humble to see that which is what makes her even more remarkable. How amazing is the depth of her faith and obedience to His will and purpose for her. She is a vessel that God can and does use.

Well, enough of my wanderings through my head and heart. Time to get back to task. People are counting on me.